Fear

 While reading so many novels , i used to come across the description of fear - usually it goes like this - it feels like ball moving between your stomach and chest and a metallic taste in the mouth and tightness in the chest. I used to wonder about that - how people are describing this.

But, i did experience this - I made a mistake in my work. Its common mistake that can be rectified but when you are overconfident about your work and just suddenly realize and catch hold of your mistake - i felt all the above feelings and experienced everything.

Have i not felt fear before - ofcourse i have felt - when aathu had his hear attack during Covid time and he was in trichy and i was in chennai - but that was a numb feel where my every action was on auto pilot mode - arranging care for paatti, P and Pa who were very small (both showed exemplary behaviour) - going to trichy with strangers - managing everything there alone -  and that post yet to continue.

But, this was different - aathu who is my confident and pillar of support - gave me confidence and said we can rectify and if needed can even compensate them - came all the way immediately from Mumbai just because he cannot see me sad during our facetime.

The thing got finally resolved - but it was a lesson for me to be careful - not that i was careless but to double check everything.