Movies

 Last week attend the AI certification course for 3 days and after attending for around 10 hours each day was like slight a very sick. Was looking forward to sleep for the whole day. But, P called during one of the day and asked "can we watch kubera night show". Since Nagarjuna was there - i thought why not and expected it to be entertaining inspite of Dhanush.....

En vazhkaila naan neraiya mistakes panni irukken, but this is the most stupidest decision of my life ( pls dont come at me saying i dont have any rasanai and all) . Each one go to movies expecting something - its their preference. For me , movie has to be entertaining. I, especially watch movies to escape the reality for 3 hours and prefer the feel good thing which clings to you.. Or it can be regular masala movie which makes you to bash it left and right and still forget everything and enjoy it without logic.

This movie is neither here nor there. After a point i felt sick and it was like eppada padam mudiyumnu irunthuthu. And it was neither in the genre of "Naan kadavul" nor like "pichaikkaran" . It tried to be something in between with the sole aim of getting Dhanush his one more National award.

The sickness continued the next day too and my whole Sunday was ruined. Was cursing P like anything....

Then he said ok - lets go to Sitare zameen par and went to that movie.

My god - I could completely relate to the movie and I do deal with students who are special. It was not melodramatic considering the plot and was not preachy but made you think from their point of view and reiterates again and again that they are also part of your society and need not be judged as per your standards.

More than anything it showed us that happiness is in your hands and ruining or enjoying is up to you.

Fear

 While reading so many novels , i used to come across the description of fear - usually it goes like this - it feels like ball moving between your stomach and chest and a metallic taste in the mouth and tightness in the chest. I used to wonder about that - how people are describing this.

But, i did experience this - I made a mistake in my work. Its common mistake that can be rectified but when you are overconfident about your work and just suddenly realize and catch hold of your mistake - i felt all the above feelings and experienced everything.

Have i not felt fear before - ofcourse i have felt - when aathu had his hear attack during Covid time and he was in trichy and i was in chennai - but that was a numb feel where my every action was on auto pilot mode - arranging care for paatti, P and Pa who were very small (both showed exemplary behaviour) - going to trichy with strangers - managing everything there alone -  and that post yet to continue.

But, this was different - aathu who is my confident and pillar of support - gave me confidence and said we can rectify and if needed can even compensate them - came all the way immediately from Mumbai just because he cannot see me sad during our facetime.

The thing got finally resolved - but it was a lesson for me to be careful - not that i was careless but to double check everything.