Life story

P is a college going kid now and when i was writing the previous post i couldnt but go through this post chennaigirl: Shock of the life (oreponnu.blogspot.com).

Hmm life is a cycle.....They say pls think before you speak and it is so true and now it has become reality.

And he is a movie buff and when he was doing his 10th after his exams, he used to write the list of movies he wanted to watch. Thats how crazy he is. And meticulously he started striking off the list.

It doesnt matter which language, he wants to watch movies, so when the time came for him to choose his group he chose commerce. I was not so surprised  when he wanted to join college, but when he opted for CA along with Bcom. 

There also, we didn't put pressure. He wanted to join college - co-ed (i couldnt find roll-on eyes emoji) . He missed his 11th and 12th due to Covid, so he wanted to experience that. Being understanding and gen-x parents we just nodded our heads.

Enakku therinju he was disillusioned of all college movies. But the reality bug bit him. He is like me - konjam self respect athigam and also konjam ego vum. The difference is he gets easily bogged down and gets into depression, whereas yours truly is very adamant and will try to get the best out of that situation - what may come iam not easily rattled.

Now, back to the story , he got bored of the course , the classmates who couldnt gel and the environment and totally lacked interest in everything. Slowly, he started hinting at change in course and starting fresh.

Initially, we were apprehensive, soon realized we cannot force and shifted him to VISCOM.

But the process was exhilarating. They start blaming us for everything - 

Why were u not clear about your course when we asked in the beginning - YOU DID NOT GIVE ME SPACE

We asked you thousand times and it was you who wanted to join college that too in the last minute when we ALREADY DECIDED to go with UG-CORRESPONDENCE and CA - I THOUGHT I NEEDED A BACKUP AND YOU ONLY BRAINWASHED ME WHENEVER U SPOKE

FINALLY - YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME 

Ennatha solla, whatever we do, we just want them to be happy more than anything.

Now, the justification for the Post title - When we used to have arguments , we used to tell him - we had none to guide us - we had to literally go and learn everything on our own and from our teens we have been taking care of ourselves as well my grandmother. 

My daughter Pa used to hear these things and yesterday night when we went to bed she asked for a story - It was already 11.30 ( she was studying for unit test) and i just said i dont have strength to think about one. Then she asked for my life story. I was like " Ennathu life story ah? " She was like - Nee P ya thittarche neriaya solluviye athu sollu

I was dumbstruck . Hmmm all times of India.

kiddie talk becomes Teen talk

 Just when i restarted to write the blog again i was going through all the Kiddie talks of P and was reminiscing the old times. 

Sometimes, i would just self evaluate, do i really behave like early 40's . Am i matured or do i atleast pretend to act matured. Whatever, the real test came.

If not here, where can i pour my heart out. I can really come back lets say 10 years later and introspect my feelings.

Well my Kiddo P is into college now studying Viscom, and how did i react when i figured he bunked college to go to the movie Barbie, with his girlfriend. Hmm, I was more mollified not because he went to movie with girlfriend but by telling me all bullshit stories underestimating my intelligence.

How did i figure out, he went? Well, that's a secret even my diary cannot know :)

When i confronted him, he openly cursed me taking classes and assumed one of the students would have spilled the beans.

Then he was trying to save his face by showing me the most cringe  instagram story he posted after the movie. He also assumed one of my student following him would have koluthipottufied.

I can even forgive him going to the movie but not the mega cringe post he posted " In barbie with my barbie" or something like that........ithellam enga poi azharathunnu theriala

And he tried to use the situation and wanted to bring her to home the following weekend. A big fight ensued not because i didnt want her to but i had already told him by busy schedule of that day. My daughter had a workshop and classes back to back that day and i had to reschedule my classes to accommodate. All these were communicated earlier to him. IN spite of that he planned and wanted to bring her.

Obviously , the nagging kid disguising himself as kid won. 

And i really had to give a pat to my aathu who was not in town but gave me a supporting hand ,shoulder and everything and was guiding like movies where the heroine who gets directions through blue tooth

Enna panrathu, these things really test me and indeed tells me KARMA IS A BOOMERANG

hmm , oru vazhiya i behaved very normally and also with dignity, and the event passed without any bloodshed.

I really dont know how i could have handled this better or how i can keep myself grounded and levelheaded in handling the future situations.

Kadavule enakku ellam handle panrathukku patience and strength kuduppa nnu daily pray panrathuthaan vazhinnu nenaikkaren