P's art corner

First, third and fourth pictures were drawn from a coloring book. Second one own imagination - influence -FAQ on POGO - After drawing he said amma see the chemicals it is an experiment.

I was really taken aback by the observation and the table beneath.

The first one was really a surprise for me. He got the curves and eyes right. I think in any picture the eyes and the nose had to be in its place and proper to get the entire face. It came as a sweet shock to me.

Shock of the life

While returning from a trip following conversation took place between father and son..
Before proceeding a snippet of an evening...
P : Amma oru vishayam sollava... enna thitta maatta illa apparam yaar kitteyum solla koodathu.
Me : Illa thitta maatten onnum solla maatten (as if enkitta romba bayam irukkara maathiri)
P : Amma S illa L ah love panraaaan
Me : (suddenly became alert and trying hard to sound casual all the time with two bulbs burning brightly) oh appadiya hmmm L is studying in ur class ist?
P : Illa maaa last yr S was in X sec and L kooda athe class thaaaan bt ippo ava Y
Me : hmm.. good we should all love each other, see i love u and appa and paatti and same way u should also love everyone seriyaaa (definitely was muzhichifying for a proper answer and even now not sure whether i did my part right)

Now to the current situation....
P : appa S illa L ah kaathalikkaraaanaaa
Aathu : (was driving and was shocked bt all the more disguised ) hmmmm....
P : avan sollraaan ava oru devathai yaaan
(ippo both were perplexed at the direction the conversation was steering )
P : Enaaakum kathalikkanumnu aasaiyaaa irukku paaaa
Aaathu : P nee enna padikkkara ippo
P : I std
Aathu : so ippo unnoda vela padikkanum apparam vera enna sollu
P : (jus that day we were lookin at various houses) hmm veedu vaanganum velai pannanum
Aathu : correct appa paar hard work panren illaya so nee nalla padichuttu atha pathi think pannalaaam okay.
I thought i should save these things for teen age , but at the jet speed think i should be well-prepared for the unexpected. Donot know whether i would be able to do justice or we were right in talking to him in this. I know some might disagree saying these are all unwarranted thinkings and fears but with the Cartoon shows shown now-a-days and the exposure the kids have these days it is wise to be frank with them rather putting aside everything as childish. Do correct me if iam wrong.... Still thinkin of thousand other ways we could have handled the aforesaid conversation but nothing seems to be appropriate.

Indebtedness

The very thought is killing me. I donot know how long i would be able to manage. It leaves me with a kind of crap feel which questions the utter sanity of life. It constantly reminds of the persona u r as been stated by various persons constantly drumming up in the mind - orphan. Isnt a strange thing when one refers though u r left with father who blissfully ignores your traumas and the feelings and leads his life as any other person.
When the son of the mother, d-i-l's and the father of the person happily forget their responsibilities why should I alone let it go to my heart and rather not mind. Is anything fundamentally wrong? Why can't I be settled in my life with no frills or whatsoever like my contemporaries living abroad by occasionally staying in touch with facebook or orkut or skype for that matter. Should i be the one who carry the torch all along. Sometimes the gratitude and the repayment feeling overshadows the real love and affection and i am afraid that at sometime it might turned into hatred. It is indeed a tricky situation where u r not the affected party but somehow all the burden lies on your head. I know iam sounding like a moron with this post. The thing is this is like my outburst where you can go on ranting without the need to explain.
I am badly in need of some vent where i can be who iam without the nagging worry - What he/she would think? Will this affect them? I think the only person you can be who you are is ur mother- I miss you amma. Though the memory is very vague i relish them and the need didnt arise for me till i was in my teens. Now i miss so much.