My Grandmother had been ill for the past 20 days. She takes regular medicines with regard to her heart problems. And she is also an ulcer patient, low BP and suffered two fractures. All this and what not more at the age of 80. But this is the longest time she had been in bed.
Never once i had seen her ill for more than a week. Though she would paduthufy me for taking food more than "P" she would recover within a week. This had been a time for testing my patience to the core.
I was able to see clearly "marana bayam" in her eyes. She got tensed for silly issues and all and started relating with all the known and unknown relatives problems with hers.
Ippadithaan enga maama vukku dysentry vanthu avar poi sernthuttar. And no she didnt have dysentery - but just once or twice that too was the effect of prolonged liquid food. Even the liquid food which i insisted were good ones only - juices, oats, kanji maavu, milk and parboiled rice kanji..... It only helped me to maintain without the aid of all glucose IV .
And when we went to kancheepuram, her hometown ,she learnt that she was the only one alive among her classmates and friends. But , her brother who is strong at 95 and his wife have become invisible to her eyes. Its been difficult to maintain her cool and aloof even if i get any death news.
And so far i had never seen deaths as such through my eyes. Only heard, always it was a message from the hospital. And it drives me nuts to be alone when my aathukarar is not in station. I start to imagine all sort of things and spend sleepless nights when she is ill. I would literally pray for the dawn to break.
After i got tired with the "aaruthal route" i have started taking strong route to deal with her. She is always wary of hospitals. So started telling her that if she continues with this sort then there is no other way other than getting her admitted into the hospital.
And this has worked for me today. Lets hope