Innocense

Pa is highly influenced by her friend A who is our neighbor. Though she is two years elder to Pa she is smart for her age.
I wonder how kids get this smartness at such a young age... Pa is also smart compared to P who knew nothing other than keeping puzzles, coloring and playing games.....(I went back to my posts and started reading......which actually compelled me to write about Pa hereafter , so that I would also have the privilege of going through growing up years of Pa.regret the opportunities lost though).

Pa can get things done and she is more open to showing love these days by hugging and kissing me... she never shies from doing things in public and more open to display of affection in particular to me . Though she shows the same to her brother/ father if they come home from outside after school/office.  But after that she refuses to go near aathu and he is hurt so much by this.

With P, aathu was with him all the time, though he was away long hours in office nevertheless he was with him during his incessant days constantly. But that was not the case with Pa. He was on and off. Would that be the reason for that.... he keeps wondering. Though I feel the behavior of Pa is not constant and would undergo changes once she grows.

Came away from the topic as usual. A as I said earlier is an admiration to me. She adjusts with P when she needs something to be done by P or when no other friends are available. ist general child behavior or I find it amusing?

P constantly complains that Pa treats him very badly in front of her friend A. (the difference in their age is 9) At times I donno whether to laugh or cry.... He is sometimes like the pasamalar annan and she the thangachhi and at times both are at logger heads constantly.

I can literally see my hair greying and though iam sometimes on the verge of tearing my hair and clothes I do enjoy their rivalry at times.....  what an evil soul ;)

Back to self

Well, I really wanted to pour out my feelings. So again after raking my brain for few hours for my user id and password, re-entered my blog.
Did anything change between my last post and this one. Hmm, lots and none. I know I don't make sense.
Its just like that for me too. I found my passion in the mean while i.e teaching. I think I should have pursued it long back. It was actually taken out of sheer necessity. But, iam actually enjoying it to the core and I wish I could have found it earlier.
Well really wanted to record about P which requires separate post and about Pa. I am actually like the pendulum oscillating between the teen behavior and the kid. Sometimes I feel I might end up in the mental asylum. I literally cry and laugh at the same time with P and Pa.
I am proud at times, angry, hurt and everything just comes likes at the same time like the Chennai weather. During my childhood we used to ask whether it rained in bangalore and yes, there is rain here in Chennai. But now I am asking hey, ist raining there in saidapet? oh , yes it is raining in st.thomas mount. Though how the cloud knows the difference is mystery.

Well I started with something and ended up writing something

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A small snippet between P and aathu when he went to pick him from school, he went along with Pa..

A : Yaaruda P antha ponnnu, unkitta kanlaye pesinale?

P : Unakku vera velaye illa….. Pooo

A : Illada, she was sitting in the van and pointed to Pa and asked " un sister ah?" in actions

P : Blushing.....(you want to know the image- u remember the girl in unnai arinthal - ajiths daughter - P is literal male version of that girl - with the same smile)

       Naan onnum sollala …….. amma paaru maaaa, ivana….