Well, I was unable to post in all these days cause I forgot my password and email id. So thought why not open fresh and even opened a wordpress. But the familiarity bug bit me and I was not comfortable and somehow struggled and found entry into my domain. This is like a fresh BLOG for Pa, sister of P. Nevertheless the chronicles of P and CG WOULD also be recorded.
Past three years had been like roller-coaster and still it is. Some things cannot be shared even with your own Diary. I thought I was very weak until I had P. That was the first time I realized and relished my confidence and never-say-die attitude and will power. But now looking at things happening and that happened I would say it was like cakewalk now…
At least for my sake to get inspiration and relish I would like to record everything like I did with respect to P in my old blog. Even today when I read those posts its like revisiting those times even though P has grown very much for his age.
I always envied mothers having boys when I was little. I would be like “awwwwwww” watching them walking with their mothers- the boys would be tall and would be having their hand on their mothers shoulders. Now its like that for me with P even though he is just 12. Naan kullamthaaan but still that fact cannot undermine his height though ;)
Pa not to be left behind is also tall like her brother and appa. She is really the savior of our family and just for this reason I have titled this post as above. Initially when I conceived thought do I really have to continue cause the age-gap between P and Pa was huge. Nevertheless wanted to continue since I didn’t want P to face the similar situation which Iam facing being only child and no parents. Though its not fair on my part to say that having a gift like my aathukarar at my side who more or less is like my mother.
Pa , she is the reason we have withstood all these turbulences these past years and acts as a glue between us , who would have otherwise spent lives living like a kadamai with the problems. She really brought meaning and gave a purpose and not to leave behind who showed exemplary behavior and courage and understanding without whom I would have been lost and ended up in a mental facility , seriously this is not an exaggeration and the problems were SEVERE and still are. But without PRAYER and GOD really I don’t think we could have come this far….. I always think DESTINY is what is we are moving towards and really without SUPREME POWER we couldn’t have survived this catastrophe. Though nothing is over I sincerely believe GOD who brought us till this stage would really take us to the safe side. Its not like I have suddenly become preachy. There were times where I would be sincerely praying reciting all slogams and parayanams and times where just I would light the lamp and pray with folded hands. Nevertheless my belief is intact.
When I went to an astrologer few years back (etha thinna piththam theliyumnu irukkara oru mentality - now ennavena nadakkattum lets face it appadingara oru stage ) he told me – you have a peculiar character – it is a boon actually – even while you are suffering you take that in a good natured spirit and would look for positives in that and would relish the suffering – in his words “dhukkaththai aarathippaval” as sathguru said.
Thinking I thought may be he was true. I would always try to find a reason and would tell aaruthal myself – see if things had gone otherwise it would have been worse. Only because it happened this way iam able to do this/get this – so GOD really made it happen this way for this only. Everything right from my mothers demise to my fathers separation to choosing a particular stream of study to falling in love to having P and Pa to present day situation I really take things at its stride.
One more important lesson was that my aathukarar who is easily exploited learnt about people and this period he was able to distance himself from those persons who would otherwise have been a leech. No amount of reason or explanation would have done the job but even this I really consider the work of GOD I mean the problems.
WHATEVER MAY BE STILL I BELIEVE EVERYTHING IS FOR GOOD
Past three years had been like roller-coaster and still it is. Some things cannot be shared even with your own Diary. I thought I was very weak until I had P. That was the first time I realized and relished my confidence and never-say-die attitude and will power. But now looking at things happening and that happened I would say it was like cakewalk now…
At least for my sake to get inspiration and relish I would like to record everything like I did with respect to P in my old blog. Even today when I read those posts its like revisiting those times even though P has grown very much for his age.
I always envied mothers having boys when I was little. I would be like “awwwwwww” watching them walking with their mothers- the boys would be tall and would be having their hand on their mothers shoulders. Now its like that for me with P even though he is just 12. Naan kullamthaaan but still that fact cannot undermine his height though ;)
Pa not to be left behind is also tall like her brother and appa. She is really the savior of our family and just for this reason I have titled this post as above. Initially when I conceived thought do I really have to continue cause the age-gap between P and Pa was huge. Nevertheless wanted to continue since I didn’t want P to face the similar situation which Iam facing being only child and no parents. Though its not fair on my part to say that having a gift like my aathukarar at my side who more or less is like my mother.
Pa , she is the reason we have withstood all these turbulences these past years and acts as a glue between us , who would have otherwise spent lives living like a kadamai with the problems. She really brought meaning and gave a purpose and not to leave behind who showed exemplary behavior and courage and understanding without whom I would have been lost and ended up in a mental facility , seriously this is not an exaggeration and the problems were SEVERE and still are. But without PRAYER and GOD really I don’t think we could have come this far….. I always think DESTINY is what is we are moving towards and really without SUPREME POWER we couldn’t have survived this catastrophe. Though nothing is over I sincerely believe GOD who brought us till this stage would really take us to the safe side. Its not like I have suddenly become preachy. There were times where I would be sincerely praying reciting all slogams and parayanams and times where just I would light the lamp and pray with folded hands. Nevertheless my belief is intact.
When I went to an astrologer few years back (etha thinna piththam theliyumnu irukkara oru mentality - now ennavena nadakkattum lets face it appadingara oru stage ) he told me – you have a peculiar character – it is a boon actually – even while you are suffering you take that in a good natured spirit and would look for positives in that and would relish the suffering – in his words “dhukkaththai aarathippaval” as sathguru said.
Thinking I thought may be he was true. I would always try to find a reason and would tell aaruthal myself – see if things had gone otherwise it would have been worse. Only because it happened this way iam able to do this/get this – so GOD really made it happen this way for this only. Everything right from my mothers demise to my fathers separation to choosing a particular stream of study to falling in love to having P and Pa to present day situation I really take things at its stride.
One more important lesson was that my aathukarar who is easily exploited learnt about people and this period he was able to distance himself from those persons who would otherwise have been a leech. No amount of reason or explanation would have done the job but even this I really consider the work of GOD I mean the problems.
WHATEVER MAY BE STILL I BELIEVE EVERYTHING IS FOR GOOD