Yesterday was aathu's birthday. He was unable to come home. He is in Mumbai. So, me P and Pa wished him at 12 and we had some fun conversation.
Also, his elder brother's wedding anniversary too falls on the same date . Sometimes , I wonder whether his father intentionally chose this date to maintain some eternal connection between the brothers.
What happened during that wedding is another story.
I like to wish people irrespective of whether they do the same for me. I always donot forget their birthdays and wedding anniversaries. This has been my habit.
Why all these stories because i got hurt badly yesterday. I donot know whether it was intentional or just akkairai from him(the brother). I wished both manni and anna separately and received the Thank you message immediately from anna also adding that he wish that his brother has a peaceful and healthy birthday.
I learnt later that he wished him early in the morning with simple Happy birthday. But, why this long message for me. I felt may be he is pointing me that he is not peaceful and healthy because of me or he wish i give him all those things or he blames me for those things. All these have been circling my mind yesterday and suddenly i felt i have no one to care or to even share feelings with.
I strongly wish for my mother at these times and curse god for not giving me a father who doesnt bother about me but happily living with his other family.
I know all these are thoughts due to periods but sometimes i get so overwhelmed.
IAM ALSO A HUMAN BEING WITH FEELINGS.